Soudain, un bruit!

two thirty am .. just about to hit the sac, I remove my head phones and sink under the covers when I hear it ... my bloody american neighbours are doing laudry again !! who in their right state of mind do laudry at 2:30 am !?!

Yé deux heures et demis am et je m 'apprète a me coucher. J'enlève mes écouteurs et crash sur mon futon lorsque soudainement je l'entend ... mes foutus voisins américain sont en train de faire une brassé de linges encors !! C qui l'épais qui fait une brassé a 2:30 am !?!

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Only an answer will be given, to a questions rooted into the season's winds, to the attentive student, all will be revealed, if only in the slightest nod.

Adam

Eureka!

je viend de catcher , je peux seulement loader 3 photos a la fois ...youpidou pour microsoft une fois plus ! aller aller bonne gens une bonne main d applaudisemsent pour l empire de bill gates ! (notez l usage de miniscules pour son nom... tum tum tum) hehehe

Ce qui me rappelle, bin pas vraiment mais bon, ya une ptite section dans ma page qui contiend des racourcis vers des pages d amis. Libre a vous d y participez mais encors, pourquoi pas ! (Pour ma part ma page n est accesible qu a un nombre limité de people et vous pouvez égualement filtrer amis d indésirables so raison de plus pour partager !)

WHY ???

Why / Pourquoi / can t I add pictures / puije ajouté des photos / bloody hell / bordel de merde !!!!

MSN be dammed / va te faire... maudis MSN / it keeps telling me the system is busy / continue a me dire que le system est trop occuper ..

We are Monday afternoon ! / Nous somme lundi apres midi !

What gives ! / De que C !!

25, any the wiser?

Well hey everyone ! well who ever dared to sneak around my space... And how might I be doing on this fine Sunday some might inquire. Pretty good, got enought school related work to keep me busy on to tueday but at least I do have the time this time around. Been a while and so I figured it might be time for a mini update for my favortite viewers ! lol Some will notice I have eliminated 3 / 4 of the past 2 year entries ... Ya well there was some stuff on there that was t relevant anymore or that I just wanted to get rid of. That being said, I'm officially 25 today and feeling none the wiser for it. Still in school and within this persepctive I have decided to stop working for a little while. At least as long as I see fit, I need to complet setting up my fieldwork programme and have it run before I even consider putting myself down for any hours at some corporate, money hungry buisness. Did manage to do a little landscapping in the past few weeks and I still have some left further down the dawning week. What else , right now enjoying a little brew (ice cool smirnoff) and prob gonna be having me some super pretty soon. Thinking oeuf a la coque poivré avec lit de riz et potage de legume comme apéro. Ptet même une ptite pomme de terre microondée comme a coté. Verra bin. A oui certain qui connaise ma nouvelle manie de collectioné des fichiers video musicaux et étaient au courant que je sacrais vu le manque d éducation de mon Mac vis a vis certain format .... Enfin j ai réussi ! mouahahaha (diabolical laught by the way, lol) Yup managed to get this neafty prog that allows me to read wwf or whatever the thing is. Small pebles in reality but then after adding all of them up nearly make it worth my wild. Hummm, relantionship wise I"m still on my own and beguning to think I might be partially responsible for this. Perhaps trying a little too much in some areas and not enougt in others, guess I'm an October balance after all. Alternating in colours and shifting hues with the morphing seasons. WTF ? like I know ! In anycase I'm hoping to change this right here and now, call my quarter of the century resolution !! hahaha. ( No Jana it ain t an epiphany, or at least not anything in the same range you had a while ago or so led me to understand ! ; ) I think I need to learn to live and let live when involved with somone. Then again I have been know to be wrong once in a while... nah.... Which reminds me if anyone is heading down into magog please let me know , got to refill my supply of dark chocolate des "Pères Tépiss de Mistassini". Simply the best chocolate ever created. Oh on a sombre note , where the hell are my Beauce friends !!! Vous etes ou bande d énergumen illettrés ??? I had my folks and grand parents and friends from college and montreal calling me up all day .... Vous êtes ou gangs de chnepans amasourdi ??? Enfin, vous n aurez juste pas votre tasse de :Yellow label", l ai toute but hier soir chez une amie comme un grand avec du people et un chat gris obèse. Bon suppose que c pas mal ça pour le moment. So next time any of you are in the city, don t be a stranger !

Tourelou !
Adam

P.S doorbell is still capoute .. so the window reminds the best way to get in. / La sonnetter est toujours capoute ce qui rend la fenêtre l option de choix ci vous désirez entré.

July Entry

Bonjours at tous et toute, une fois encors il est temps de vous mettre au parfums quand a ma ptite vie ptite misere. Lol Uno certains se rapelleron dla saga de la pagette defectueuse .... Et bien sa marche toujours pas , comme c la j attend ma 3 pagettes et deuxieme de l ete "d ici 6 a 10 jours" Quoi d autre , et bien j ai decouvert le Jazz festival ce week end et combien la SAQ fait bien les choses ... lol Un ptit rose par ci un ptit rouge par la , yipy ya ye la compagnie ! Serieux bonne music et organisation sans comte la compagnie et une ptite decouverte en plein coeur dla ville a faire tripper vous tous oiseau de nuits. La job ? Et bien apres etre passer de 6 jours semaine a 4 puis 3 et de retours a 5 je devrais etre a 3 cette semaine a moin que je remplace de nouveau. So j ai dla place en masse pour des guimauves et co. Sur ce, je me tire au resto. Tourelou !

Adam


P.S anyone in St Foy going into the Beauce on Wednesay afternoon / night ? Peut etre un combo movie ? Bonjours at tous et toute, une fois encors il est temps de vous mettre au parfums quand a ma ptite vie ptite misere. Lol Uno certains se rapelleron dla saga de la pagette defectueuse .... Et bien sa marche toujours pas , comme c la j attend ma 3 pagettes et deuxieme de l ete "d ici 6 a 10 jours" Quoi d autre , et bien j ai decouvert le Jazz festival ce week end et combien la SAQ fait bien les choses ... lol Un ptit rose par ci un ptit rouge par la , yipy ya ye la compagnie ! Serieux bonne music et organisation sans comte la compagnie et une ptite decouverte en plein coeur dla ville a faire tripper vous tous oiseau de nuits. La job ? Et bien apres etre passer de 6 jours semaine a 4 puis 3 et de retours a 5 je devrais etre a 3 cette semaine a moin que je remplace de nouveau. So j ai dla place en masse pour des guimauves et co. Sur ce, je me tire au resto. Tourelou !
Adam
P.S anyone in St Foy going into the Beauce on Wednesay afternoon / night ? Peut etre un combo movie ?

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hey, I realise it s been a while but then I am at my folks ofr the summer so this sort of thing is to be expected. AMong which to my own distress is the in house connection rate to the web ... dial up ! And here I thought it was exctinct ! Oh well guess it will have to do. So what s going on around in my simpleton s life theise days ? My friends are the best and I m glad to share once more if only for a little while a common track in theire compagny. What else, WORK , 6 days with a week end day off on rotation, mornings and afternoons or mornings and nights or afternoon and nights , pick your poison. At least the crew is great and money better than at a previous employment I won t here spell out. In any case they are keeping me busy enought. Surprisingly I feel like I am slowly but surelly recharging my batteries, figured I was due for a country "tune up" but I did not fathom how low I actually was when I first came back. Guess it s true what they say about fresh air and your mother s cooking. Went hicking two weeks ago , well sort of pelerinage annuelle, in the "les Loup" track. Managed to keep the old man at bay on the way up, lol, thee who is bicking and spinning every chance he gets, not bad for a city slacker ;) heheehe. Was pretty fogy once on top , we could even see the bellow valley ,the summit lost in white clouds. Doe it did clear up a little and we got a glimps of the below river just in time for a picture. We feed the grey jays during our brief lunch, those little fellaws are a hungry and greedy bunch. Heck one even tried ripping away an ottmeal bar from my hand as I was pointing towarsd the horizon thinking I was making an offering. lol I ll post a couple of pics in the next few days on that hike as well as a few others taken around town in the winter and spring. What else .... Oh prob gonna purchase a ticket for the grand prix de montreal in the next few days, hint hint for any and all who might be interested in comming. In any case I still got to call a couple of people and have a little chat with them on this very topic. Perhaps the thing that I miss the most aside from the metro (yes I do enjoy the metro !) and the few friends I have in the city is the chinesse noodles from the noodle place near SGW campus. Mom tried to conviced me I could make my own .... I don t even know where to start explaning why I can t nor should even try. If it was that easy do you rally think people would travel for a half a day , pay rent and go into all the trouble of coming downtown to have a late lunch before heading back down the river ??? Now that was a sweet lunch in the sun bu the Hall building it was :) humm , surprising how one might rent on the small things and fill the screen ! hehehe. Guess that pretty much what s up theise days. Oh before I forget my Ipod fm emitter rules in the car and at work !! it s like x-mass everytime.
A

Heeee... "pager"

Il a ete porte a mon attention que mon pager ne fonctionais plus il y a quelques jours deja .... Genre que c pas evident pour moi d etre au courant de ce genre de trouble technique et donc ci vous etes une des nombreuse "victimes" lol, j en suis desoler. Ne pencez pas que je fesais mon ptit independent, loins de la je savais meme pas que mon system ne marchais pas. Au moin Bell va m en envoyer un neuf d ici 7 a 10 ouvrable par chez nous so je devrais etre operationel d ici peu. Yaa... like it s a matter of life or death or something. Anywho c ce qui en est pour le pager (3 en 3 ans by the way...tech crapp). A part de tca je redencend jeudi, prob jeudi pm dependament de ce qui se passe par ici, travaille au centre jardin samedis et je remonte le courant pour un alle retour dimanche avec mon vieu pour demenager mon ptit grement pour l ete. Et pis lundi c le retour a la routine habituelle d ete. Now why does that seem so dull all of a sudden ? lol Guess it s true what they say, you always want what you can t get ... guess it s better to crave what is in your own grasp rather but then easier said than done. oye lunch is smokinn ! literarly $%@#$%@# !!!!

what goes around....

What goes around comes around .... or so they say . Now what if I stoped it ? then would it die or evolve into something new and unforseen ? would it still come around ? ripples from a rock tossed into water, I remove the throw but I am still by the water edge, now what ? Myself breathing, the water remains, the kids game and verb ?
Adam ;)

31 Mars

ceux qui me connaise le mieux, savent qu en hiver je veux mon canoe et en ete mon snow .... Ma question est donc la suivante, que c que ca fait quand au printemps je me promene avec la sensation de ma "Grey Howl" dans le creux de ma main en plein centre ville ? ne desirant seulement que de plonger cette extension de mon moi a meme l humeur bouillonante et rugisante d une de nos ptite rivieres ? Je sais , je sais , not gonna happen mais et je dis bien MAIS quand ont y pence sa amene a pencer a plein de truc .... les feux chez Isa et jess .... les run de roller avec el David .. Nicolas qui nous part sa comme il se dois .... Crouss meme jean qui en fait des siennes avec ses plans et son frere qui debarque avec avantures en main en chantant le tout sur le bord du chemin, du moin jusqu a demain. Steur que j y pence .... what the fuck am I doin around here !!!!! ou du moin ce pourait etre un ordre d idee logic compte tenue de la juste enonce ligne de pence. Donc ce qui me connaise le mieux peuvent probalblemt se rejouir avans meme que je decide quoi que se sois. DE toute fason j ai un ptit brun place sur les previsions de la part de certains quant a mon "desimigration" possible. Ceci etant dis ya rien de fait, d'autant plus que de ce temps ci je vire pas pire qu une bordel de giroutte qui spine comme ci yavais pas de landemain. Etk, moi je met un ticket sur le 5 du 12, reste a voir ce que la maison me reserve je suppose.... Le winner ? je lui sort un kingder surprise oeuf d autruche size !!! lol

Tourelou !

Adam

Purple Breach

Why is it that when one begins to feel for another

He must immediately seek satisfaction

Despite better judgement rush well into the open field barring his cause high up

Why is it that I run well into the dent of trouble

Eyes wide open still pushing forward like the endings of tomorrows

The desert is after all, not such a dry place when one travels by night

Or is perhaps that I am sick of the cold lonely nights

My skin, as white as it gets can’t tolerate the day’s scorching rays

Nevertheless I can but long for a healthy run under the yellow’ s crisp glare

The hunter’s moon, is a good friend

The soft owl and prowling feline companions, decent fellows

Heck I even enjoy the cold and thrills that comes with star hunting among the tree crowded woods

Still, it is lonely and perhaps my cause to remedy to this is the breach

Night sweats overflowing into day

A walking man on golden sands, dripping with countless evenings

I wonder, how might I stand this heat

Limbs and skin turning to a crisp under such glares

But I came willingly to this reality, hence where and when is my custom made day ?

When will it be my turn to soak up my surroundings

Glide with ease to a nearby oasis

Simply sit by the half sheltered water, singing sadly or happily to a bemused underwater muse

Look across the blue surface, she into the same delicate window

Mere mirage to us both when appalled by such temperature

One that is more likely to dissipate within the hour, leaving … what I often wonder.

Adam

quote

"Either leave 'em laughing ... or leave 'em wondering what the hell you mean"
McCoy to Spock and Jim ("Sand and Stars" book)
Title used for quote from "Surak" also from the same passage.

March 18th

HAPPY ST PATRICK'S DAY EVERYONE !! So I'm working tomorow but tomorow night with any chance it's Mckkibins with some familly and Sunday St Cath and the traditional parade around noon. So if anyone is looking for me follow the green trail, page me or better yet just come and join us ! "On St Patricks day everyone is Irish" , or so does the old saying goes. Have fun this week-end and if we do not meet under open skies or sheltered tavern I'll be expeting a full report come Monday.

March 17th

Well I still got a few glitch to investiguate ... but the more times flows the more it would seem I ll be sticking around town this summer .... festivals, night life, walking the town under the night lights and warm winds .... hehehe , did hear of worst ways of spending one s summer ! Anywho I want to get back in shape so TaiChi , hicking, gym ? The sugestion box is now open people, and while we are at it, anyone in the same prediguament who whant to tag along for the ride ? Talk to me !

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"Thus , first degree operations, which are thought about an external empirical reality, can become the object of higher order thoughts in an attempt to discover not necessarily what is real but what is possible."

Lovely little quote n est'il pas ? hehehe

Adam

Bon !

good morning , or is it afternoon already ? Anywho juste deux dodo avant la fin de semaine de ski !! God I hope I make throught in one piece , lol . Sad thing is so far we only have 5 players as one of the couples has droped out and the other regulars seem to be simply missing in action.... Where is everyone ??????? Enfin qu importe puisque nous alons avoir plus de place pour nous et tout notre ptit grement. Donc grace a la generositee quasi legendaire des mes compatriotes dla belle comptee beaucerone et un peu de chance au boulot j ai reussi a alterer mon horaire de travaille de vendredi de 5:45 a 9:30 pour travaille de 10 a 3:30 ce qui me met en route (de Berry) pour St Foy a 5 pm. Avec un peu de chance je devrais donc etre a ma destination transitoire vers les 7:45 et mes amis serons a meme de me prendre en charge jusqu a l ultime destination du "Massif Du Sud" . Donc ci je recapitule, je fini a 3:30 , ramasse mon pack pour la fin de semaine , pogne la bus jusqu au metro, le metro jusqu a Berry, Berry je jump 2 etages pour le terminus de bus, bus pour Saint-Foy (detour par Longueil je suppose), Terminus de St-Foy j attrape au vol la gondolle jaune pour le Massif Du Sud avec un pit stop pour dla beer et presto ! Quasiment trop simple , lol

16 février 06

yet another leaf I picked up
"It s only in the black of night that you can see the stars shinning. The same stars that will guide you back home. "




P.S got that as a part of a closing statment of an ado soap.... please don t judge me !!! lol

9 février

nouveau racourci vers de vieux amis
bin quoi ! j ai bin le droit d ajouter des ptits racourcis ici et la ... viva los amigos ! lol So pas de pression vous autres mais que c que vous attendez ?? un ptit blog par ci une ptite photo par la et presto une page perso. Crimpe ci Jess a reussi ... toi itou t ai capapble , hehehehe please don t kill me la jesse !!
Adam ; )

"yipi yaye ye ducon"

what happens when you realise that you have been trying all this time to generate a flow of your own but have in fact become so immerced in maintaining what you already have, you have been damming your very potential ? I want to keep , not loose what I have gain throught hardship. This I have accomplished on an operational level I believe, but now I am faced with the social / emotional dimension and reality of it all. I have to move out of my comfort level and to be purfically honest I am not looking foward to this venue as much as I used to. Not now that I can litterally feel the crisp wall so near my curved back. "yipi yaye ye ducon" (Die Hard 1 , gotta love that one ;)

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merde que le destin fait bin les choses ! En train de mettre a jour certaines de mes pages ecrites (poems , reflections) avec en tete une persepective du passe et d ou c que je vais et ya fallu que la tune de "charmed" passe a la radio. Justement l epoque alors que je commencencais a ecouter ce ptit programmeque je commencais egualement a ecrire ces entrees du temps de SLC ,epoque ou ma vie a pris le tournant qui ma mene jusqu ici. Somehow all comes together. Might actually be allright after all ; )

P. S. Thanks for your kind vote of confidence to my last entry to your blog L.

Certe nous sommes mercredi, toutefois ...

Ouin bin il est maintenent mercredi les amis. Suite a des commentaires sur ma derniere entree ... (et ils disent que je ne porte pas attention...) je vais maintenent tenter de m'exprimer avec d avantage d eloquence et d une maniere qui porte honeur a notre belle langue francaise.Ce lorsque je m exprime dans la belle langue bien sur. Dans cet ordre d idee je me sens oubliger d apporter quelques specifications quand a mon clavier et vocabulaire. Premierement mon clavier et window sont anglophone, il m'est donc imposible d utiliser une pontuaction qui est toujours des plus appropriee. En second lieux, certain termes peuvent apparaitrent quelques peu etrange a certains individus. Des termes tel que :

mecton = mec = dude ,
dla = de la
djus = du jus
chu = je suis
bordel = merde! ou expression ideomatique servant a marquer une accentuation du sens propre a la phrase.
chian = not good ! lol

Bref ci vous vous retrouvez dans une situation tel qu enonce plus haut, vous pouvez toujours compte sur ma plus sincere cooperation afin de vous menez a la reponse que vous rechercher. Ceci etant dis , certain aurons probablement remarquer l ajout d une nouvellee section dans ma page d'origine. Et bien suite a la quasi omnipresente de Lyddie a mes entree de journal je cru bon d ajouter sont adresse interenet a ma page . Un homage ci vous le voulez bien a ses multiples participations (keep it up L.E ! lol ;). Sur ce et pour cloitre la dite entree ci vous desire faire ajouter votre adress internet ... bin participez borde de merde ! hehehehehe.

Adam

31 janvier

Exams pis des bizzaroides, montreal an interesting little town, lol
mouin , bin c deja cette periode de l annee ... riguedons ? nooooonnn , bonne annee alors ? nnnaaaadddddaaaa ... Fete a quequn ? bin oui mais c etait dans les dernieres semaines... So c le temps des ... EXAMS ! youpidoutidlidou ! j aime quasiment autant sa que me lever le matin quand il fait noire. C qui sois disant passant est tout a fait naturel , vous vous rappellez le vieux dicton qui dis ;"il se leve avec le soleil et se couche avec le soleil " ? Bon ok peu etre que je me couche pas avec mais l intention est la et puis j ai des cours anyway en soiree. donc au menu cito que j ai fini avec l actuelle entree, un ptit paragraphe sur "quelque que j admire" pour la guarderie (Engl 207) et deux exams pour demain avec une evaluation par la directrice de mon peer group entre les deux. Joy joy joy , nah je chiale pas ! metton plutot que je partage mon eblouissant mercredi a venir avec vous tous ; ) sois disant pourquoi les weirdo dla ville ne sortent que seulement les soir de fin de semaine et quand j ai dla visite ? Pop est passer vendredi soir et seulement a la pizzeria yavais un mecton qui se mangeait les mains tout en orbitant le contoire de service et marmonant l aire trouble pendent que deux autre individus , un gars une fille, semblaient transfixer par leurs ecran d ordi ferme... Genre qu ils etaient assis droit devant leur terminal (internet offer sur 2 ordi a la pizzeria) de temps a autre echangent un cour dialogue mais sans pour autant quitter leur ecrant de vue... Un autre c est fait arreter dimanche dans le metro encors une fois marmonant au flics dissimule derirere ses des super dooper lunette fumee du genre : "leaving Las Vegas" (fait noir dans le metro dude ...) pendent que le nouveau weirdo en mouvement j ai nommer "mangeur de main il t en restera pas pour demain ! " etait toujours a sont occupation dans le fond de la rampe d embarquement. Bordel faut il que la visite me rappelle un etat de normalitee pour je les appercoives vue que je suis rendu habitue ou c ti l aire dla campagne qui les fais sortir de leur cachette ?? Montreal people, ain t it interesting ! Bon on est toujours mardi et un mercredi sa se prepare so tourelou.

who are you : P ??

who are you : P ??
hee ouin , bin le fun mais c qui " : P " qui a commenter mon entre precedente ?? SVP faite pas durer le suspence !

"Editorial justification on previous entry"

ok , perhaps I went a little overboard with the germs and such in my last entry .... hehehe I was only kidding plus I had just completed a questionaire for a study (me got bonus points for participating :) that day involving some obsesive compulsive behavioral patterns including clealiness.... So there goes my inspiration for the digusting stuff , as to the motivation well "someone" lead me to it althought in the after mat it would seem I might have missunderstood some words ... germs and Germs (Germans) ... come on Lydia ! Those are damm close without the proper context. Tce, hein, comme, genre la ... lol. So to any who I might have offended, discusted or scared straight , hihihi, my apoligies I suppose.

Bebye

germ warfare ? Course I can !

Hummm Germ Warfare .... Well Lydia from one mad mind to another and after carefull consideration , YES I do believe this is within the reach of my twisted mind ! lol Just imagine ye people of the web , keybords dripping with gresse , food crums lodged as far as the eye can see among the keys , the keys themselves being eaten alive by filth and germs God only knows were you picked those up. The same you hammer all the more deeply every time you type .... Germs from the metro ramps, the bus seats , the doors on campus and pretty much everywhere you touch ... Do you know what the guy before you touched ? Was he a nose picker perhaps ? ? Just Look at your keyboard , you are in so deep already ..... hhhhhhhheeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really, Nothing

Sunday night, it s 10:18 and I honestly have nothing to declare on this fine night. Oh well the "Sea Hacks" made it to super bowl 40 !! heee youpidou tidlidou ? lol Seriously who are those guys ?? What else well my Evanescence cd (Origin) is not bad , not bad at ! Of course there are a number of songs from the Fallen album but most are from an earlier draft so they tend to be a little messier and more experimental. Today at work my boss who is usually contempt in barking orders from the distance actually shooked my hand ... lol heee ...why did he come all the way across the hall , say hi and shake my hand and walked off ??? Did I win something ? Perhaps a raise ? that would be oh so sweeeettt ... Anywho nothing in comparison to last wednesday but let s face it been a slow week-end on the weird side. What else , well finally got the final draft for the peer office, number 4 is it ? I sort of lost track and my calender , God bless it s erasable properties, is I hope now fully up to date. And yeas I know have ink all over as I have been hovering between the pc , my calender , kitchen most of the eveaning. Parts of the joys and advantages of living in a one and half ! So I guess this is it for now, bebye !

Mini Essay ...

A mini essay on my version of Friday the 13. It can jump weeks !!
Can Friday the 13 be forwarded to a later date ?? Last Friday was the 13 , the Father of a friend got into a nasty accident while working under a car in the pit. But today for my part, second step outside my building this morning,Took a deep breath having just woken up minutes earlier. I open my umbrella since it s pooring down (in January mind you) and before I knew what was going on I was tumbelling down the stairs of my building !!! I know only 6 to 8 steps but my neck is still soar , bouhououou . My brand new umbrella I broke a piece from and it ended up flying to my right against the steps fence. My gloves 3 meters in the snow bank to the left, thus I got snow in my jeans in the process of retrival and my backpack was somehow covered in what I like to describe as cat litter... Suppose to be sand to prevent us from slippering, GOOD JOB ! lol . Finally as I made my way into class now totally awake I noticed my butt to be crunchy and drenched as I sat down . Cat litter and water all over my jean yet again only higher #$%@#%@#% !! Felt like I was 4 years old or something and just came back from playing in sand after a rain shower. Then after getting back to the security of my unslippery apartment carpet floors I had the postman ring a ding a ding. Good been expecting a package for over a week, I ask the gentlement for the package and he expresses his appologies by illustrating his confusion as to the proper ringer for the proper appartement. After pointing to him the right door (yaaa did t even have the right door ladies and gentlement) I go back inside to pack my afternoon load as I prepare to head downtown. I showed up the peer counselliing office to pick something up and assuming the women in the office with a peer was actually a friend of hers by the discourse that was being held I braged in , forgeting the protocal and privacy needs ... I was after all sort of correct since I then learned she applying for a possible spot for next year's peer. So wrong for barging in but thenI was also right as I wasonly trying to be socialble to a possible recruit. Lydia had it best in saying ; "everyone who walks in is a client" as it afterwards indeed proved to be the case, DOE ! Later while taking a sidewalk curve to speedly I began slipping against my will into the slush moving car area of the street. Of course by that time I had changed so a jack ass was nice enought to send an espacially juicy poddle of slush hight up in the air right into my defenseless posture of current helplesness. Then as I finnally got the hang of this type of pedestrian walking style I managed to secure an order from the local pizza place. Everything was going smoothly , the cook was even watching and commenting the movie that was playing in the big screen. That was good since I had never seen this picture nad had no idea why people were dying and speeding throught the city with helicopters and cops not to mention gangsters watching the persuit via the news networks that were covering the chase. Anywho after 20 min , give or take, I heard an apologie rise from the kitchen ... I naturally investiguated as clients have a view on the kitchen and since the cook was looking right at me with a sort of sorry yet amused smile ... My medium peperoni pizza was crisp black .......... He had quite forgoten about it being totally involved in the movie forgeting the man eating size stove that was cooking one meter right behind him. So 20 min later I got my ordered ration of food as originally ordered , no discounts aside from apoligies once more from the cook. Althought he did try to have me believe he had over cooked it once more, coming to my table and speaking apologies in an unconvincing tone. Finally I get back home and what do I see under my door ?? Remember the postman with the wrong door , the one I asked if he had something for me , like a cd ... ??? Well turns out the sender of the packages did not put down my appartement letter ....... Thus the package ended up at my neighbour s place but she was not there so they left her I notice of failed delivery and bill of 8:50 $ to pick it up in the next few days. She seeing the notice was actually adresed to me was kind enought to slip it under my door. So the postman I re-direct only a few hours before was actually looking for my place, only he did not have the sence to realise that the CD I was asking for might have been the one he was carrying in a translucide package I only remembered in the aftermatt in his left hand and that Adam written on the packages (did not say to whom it was adressed in our little talk ) was actually ME MYSELF and I who had answer the ring a ding !!!!!!!!!!!! I ll tell ya this Wednesday was a weird one in bad luck if nothing else.

Finito !!

No more gov loans !!! hahahaha I just gave those financial vampires their final due eariler today. Yes I am nearly broke but I can finally say I owe nada to those guys anymore. Congrats to me ! or as mister Burns would say; "Excelent, Excelent"

Riders On The Storm; me simply bitching about crums
what ? Can t I listen to the Once in a while ! My field of study is human behavior and interactions , but how easy it is to get caught up within one's own emotions and pre conconceptions of what should or ought to be. Not to mention pride and arrogance, got to love those two , espacially in matters that hit close to home. Earlier I got angry after being insulted for crums , insignificant variance in the great web of life. Lost my patience and covered in up with an extravagant plot feed by past resentment enticing various friends and familly members into a nice little mess. And you know what, looking back I can see this was hardly avoidable, lol. Not that I am proud of it, nor is this in any way a confession. Consider the current as my pen steeming across the page in a failled effort to live up to my own ooohh soo hight standards, slowly yet surelly making way beyond the confortable shores. Why in English then ? Well if anyone and everyone can't get from top to bottom without a dictionary or by lack of effort all the better. Guess it's my little way of sticking it to some who should not be reading this, that is without some effort into the task at hand. So in my current plight I have made sure to begin a process of alianation of one while feeding my motivations to act in such a manner via the previous insult and growing dislike for the unfolding of various events. All of wich are connected to each other in some retrospect and to which I have become a participents unknowliginly and in a most laisy manner even contributing in a manner I consider unfit from one friend to another. My confession then ? Well I suppose it would eventually come down to this... I am guilty of talking behind the back of a true friend, raising my dislike of some other comment via a groundless plot so as to bipass the true motivations of my current unrest and I feed all of this utilising my guilt for the first act. The original insult from a loud mouth friend who is the direct cause for energising this current chain reaction I hold myself blamless aside from being painfully aware of this flaw in her that I should by know by contiously aware in my dealings with. In other words the loud mouth one pushed me and I responded accordingly , only problem is my response was not perceive as such since I attached my resentment to a another issue so as to diffuse the immediat criss. Avoidance ? Yup , Should I openly confess ? Not gonna cause let s face it, not everyone can claim to study and perceive human behavior objectively and then after remain as always to one another. May they be friends or not it is not something you can claim to have without proper training. I may suck at various things, but one thing I do understand is how not to ignite trouble beyond repair or range of "to be taken responsabiltiy for". Something I would of believed one in the field of helping others would
of known by now.

The lessons ?

D'ont go around bitching about your friends abilities and putting you're day "sugar pie" in front of them treating them like less than their just worth just because you can. You might feel like falling without a net to be more painfull than expected if the situation shoud arise ...

As for my part , I will endavour to punch square and fair at the issue at hand from now on.

Adam


P.S , No it's not from anyone around here so you over thinkers (and you know who you are I think; "Garfield looking gall", "Greeks" and "college & co" ... lol ) take a break, it ain t about any of you !