"yipi yaye ye ducon"

what happens when you realise that you have been trying all this time to generate a flow of your own but have in fact become so immerced in maintaining what you already have, you have been damming your very potential ? I want to keep , not loose what I have gain throught hardship. This I have accomplished on an operational level I believe, but now I am faced with the social / emotional dimension and reality of it all. I have to move out of my comfort level and to be purfically honest I am not looking foward to this venue as much as I used to. Not now that I can litterally feel the crisp wall so near my curved back. "yipi yaye ye ducon" (Die Hard 1 , gotta love that one ;)