Finito !!

No more gov loans !!! hahahaha I just gave those financial vampires their final due eariler today. Yes I am nearly broke but I can finally say I owe nada to those guys anymore. Congrats to me ! or as mister Burns would say; "Excelent, Excelent"

Riders On The Storm; me simply bitching about crums
what ? Can t I listen to the Once in a while ! My field of study is human behavior and interactions , but how easy it is to get caught up within one's own emotions and pre conconceptions of what should or ought to be. Not to mention pride and arrogance, got to love those two , espacially in matters that hit close to home. Earlier I got angry after being insulted for crums , insignificant variance in the great web of life. Lost my patience and covered in up with an extravagant plot feed by past resentment enticing various friends and familly members into a nice little mess. And you know what, looking back I can see this was hardly avoidable, lol. Not that I am proud of it, nor is this in any way a confession. Consider the current as my pen steeming across the page in a failled effort to live up to my own ooohh soo hight standards, slowly yet surelly making way beyond the confortable shores. Why in English then ? Well if anyone and everyone can't get from top to bottom without a dictionary or by lack of effort all the better. Guess it's my little way of sticking it to some who should not be reading this, that is without some effort into the task at hand. So in my current plight I have made sure to begin a process of alianation of one while feeding my motivations to act in such a manner via the previous insult and growing dislike for the unfolding of various events. All of wich are connected to each other in some retrospect and to which I have become a participents unknowliginly and in a most laisy manner even contributing in a manner I consider unfit from one friend to another. My confession then ? Well I suppose it would eventually come down to this... I am guilty of talking behind the back of a true friend, raising my dislike of some other comment via a groundless plot so as to bipass the true motivations of my current unrest and I feed all of this utilising my guilt for the first act. The original insult from a loud mouth friend who is the direct cause for energising this current chain reaction I hold myself blamless aside from being painfully aware of this flaw in her that I should by know by contiously aware in my dealings with. In other words the loud mouth one pushed me and I responded accordingly , only problem is my response was not perceive as such since I attached my resentment to a another issue so as to diffuse the immediat criss. Avoidance ? Yup , Should I openly confess ? Not gonna cause let s face it, not everyone can claim to study and perceive human behavior objectively and then after remain as always to one another. May they be friends or not it is not something you can claim to have without proper training. I may suck at various things, but one thing I do understand is how not to ignite trouble beyond repair or range of "to be taken responsabiltiy for". Something I would of believed one in the field of helping others would
of known by now.

The lessons ?

D'ont go around bitching about your friends abilities and putting you're day "sugar pie" in front of them treating them like less than their just worth just because you can. You might feel like falling without a net to be more painfull than expected if the situation shoud arise ...

As for my part , I will endavour to punch square and fair at the issue at hand from now on.

Adam


P.S , No it's not from anyone around here so you over thinkers (and you know who you are I think; "Garfield looking gall", "Greeks" and "college & co" ... lol ) take a break, it ain t about any of you !